Reflections and Fragments

I was having a fun night of petting animals and having dance battles (legit), but then I came back to my dorm. 

It’s freezing outside, for one thing. It took me 5 times swiping my card before the outside door unlocked (probably a sign that I’ll have to break down and get the new ID). Then I walk inside and to the elevator, and some guy just says “get the elevator” or whatever. If I would’ve realized that he and his two friends were trying to get on the elevator in the first place, I would’ve tried to take the stairs or something, but who knows if they would’ve just tried to follow behind me to get up there. We’re on the elevator, and I obviously can’t reach the buttons since they got on first. One of them asks me which floor after they’ve pushed the button for a floor. Coincidentally, they’re going to my floor already. One of the guys actually says “how coincidental”. Ugh. 

Then the same guy who basically demanded me to get the elevator (even though I was already going to get the fuckin elevator) asks me “dtf?”. Are you fucking serious?! He even repeated it and thought I didn’t know what it meant, but I shook my head and said no. As soon as we got to my floor, I walked into the bathroom (which is directly across from the elevator thankfully). But right before I walked all the way in, one of the guys (probably the same guy) asked if he could get my number. I just waited in the bathroom for a few minutes until I didn’t hear their voices anymore, peeped into the hallway, then swiftly came to my room and locked the door behind me.

I am so disgusted by their behavior, specifically the one who did all of the talking. I’m disgusted with the other guys as well for not saying a damn thing to their friend. You don’t know my name, you don’t know who I even am, you ask if I’m “dtf”, THEN you have the nerve to ask for my number? Who the fuck are you?

I don’t think I’ve ever felt so disrespected in my life, especially by a complete stranger. It just makes me so fucking angry.

And now I feel so cold. So, so cold.

I wish most of my friends weren’t gone this weekend or living in other buildings right now.

Good night.